up and down today.

anger. frustration. joy. sadness. panicky. rushed. tiredness. hunger.
what else.
felt it all today.
what a day.

no sight of ambulances today too.

blow me away.

someone supply me with grenades of energy please.
for both brain and bod.
and neck. for my stiff neck.
and finger. for my hardened index.
and cockroaches. so they can tire themselves dead.

i see one every freaking day at work.
yucks.

i wish cockroaches could die from growing out feelers.
this way they dont get to live long.
this way they dont get to grow and populate.

im being so bombastic.



racists all flock together.
i'm thinking if im not one and fon is.
my brother's not one and my BF is.

and i give them credit for being smart.
and being humans.

but what they themselves are racists too?
and they do jokes of us.
and call us Chinese yellow skinned monkeys?
or papaya-brained vain pots?
or hairless money freaks who stupidly spend money to try win money?

freak them.

are animals racists?


im thinking too much.