gloog gurgle and gulp at 12:47:00 PM

We kept talking about being honest with one another and how trust comes into place.
You dont realise how contradicting it is until you reminiscence on it.

Try reading the first sentence of this post again and you will know what i mean.

If we really trust each other, there wont be need of the constant reminder to be honest.


And constantly promising it to yourself or the other party wont help either.
Empty promises dont bring about much.
They only hurt people and let them down in the end.
Or just ourselves.


I blew him off. Shut him out like i did to others.
I really shouldnt have.
Im not regretting.
But im not glad about it either.
I do need more time. Im not ready yet.

I wish he could read my blog. But he doesnt use computers much.
I hope he truly understands like he said he does.


I was just asked to accompany someone to a wedding dinner.
I wished he has more guts to ask me directly.
He got a common friend to ask me instead.

Am i that intimidating?
I mean i'd proudly say im being as independent as i can and i hang around with my brothers alot and i do as i preach and is completely unafraid of cockroaches, lizards and all the creepy crawlies but surely im pleasant enough to be asked out directly?!!

Maybe im being too sensitive. Perhaps he's just... never mind.
Im not looking forward to it though. I just hope it wont be too awkward.
I have had my fair share of awkward moments.


Reunion with some girlfriends from Hope later.
We are having Prata House. I bet it was Fon's persuading. She's very persuasive when it comes to food.
Looking forward to tonight.